i dreamed a dream...

Well, wasn't that last post a real humdinger?! Geesh. And it didn't even make sense. Tis ok- I usually don't make sense.

I woke up with a start this morning; my heart was racing and I was sweating like a pig. It took a second to figure out why. I was having a horrible dream. I woke up right at the height of it. Not quite sure where I lived but I was sitting in my back yard watching the kids play and all of a sudden I heard a man yelling in Spanish and a woman screaming. I looked up this hill (that magically appeared out of nowhere, of course) and there was a small house with a huge picture window. Sure enough, there was a man beating the crap out of his wife. I just sat there watching in horror..and then he looked straight at me. Chills.

I've always had weird but vivid dreams.Several years ago, I'd wake up almost every night and turn on every light in the house, check the window and door locks, and make sure each of my kids were breathing. That was kind of related to something else, but my dreams were..wow..somethin else. I've never believedin those dream interpretation books and websites but this morning all was quiet (5 a.m.-not a creature was stirring) so I googled "dream interpretation" and clicked on the first link- dreammoods.com. Typed in "violence" in the search box and here's what I got:

To see violence in your dream, indicates unexpressed anger or rage. You need more discipline in your life. If you enjoy the violence, then it points to your aggressive or sadomasochistic tendencies. The dream may also reflect repressed memories of child abuse. In particular, to dream that the violence is directed to yourself, represents self-punishment and guilt. You may be feeling helpless or vulnerable in some area of your life. Violence toward others in your dream, suggests that you may be fighting or struggling against aspects of your own self.

Very interesting, indeed! I take these things with a grain of salt usually but I'm starting to see some correlation. Kind of like the zodiac thing. You can say what you want about it, but it's pretty hard to deny some of the connections. For example, I am a Libra and Scorpio because I was born on a cusp. And no matter how skeptical I am, damn it if it doesn't have me pegged! BUT, you're not gonna see me reading my horoscope. That's pretty lame.